Progress?

Welcome my first post of the 2011 year.

I don't feel that excited for this new year. In fact, I haven't felt like I can tell 2011 to "bring it on" or that there are great things in store for me. I just feel like it's another day, but different year.

What a year 2010 was. I've never had a crazier year. My senior year was really hard for me. I dated someone to help me through the loss of my friend, and it ended badly. I had a hard time, but I was cared for and supported by counselors, family members, and friends. Luckily I made it through with a great seminary teacher as well, and I graduated from high school :) That was the happiest day of the year so far. Then I met Brady. We started dating a day after graduation, and I couldn't be more happier. I hungout with great friends and I ended up having a better summer than I ever thought I was going to. Moving to school was hard, but at the time I knew that's where I needed to be. School was rough; living with 5 other people you've never lived with, and dealing with the college style of school was definitely an adjustment. I made it through with going home almost every weekend. Brady has been my rock since day one, and I'm forever grateful.

Today is the anniversary of my sweetheart & I :) We've been together 7 months now!

The first picture of us when we started dating! :)

Also, Brady has been gone 1 month today!! You know what that means!? 23 more months, 22 more fast Sundays and I don't know how many more days, hahaha. All I know is that it's felt like FOREVER.

The last picture of us before he left/his farewell.

I guess you can say it's a big deal that he's been gone for 1 month, but really!? He's pretty homesick, and in the last letter, I can't even begin to tell you how much he misses me and home and his family. It's super hard because I want to say it right back but I shouldn't.

I really had a hard time tonight. I went to his house and visited with his family. It was good but his smell is overwhelming and I just couldn't help but reminisce of the funny times, the sad times, the "tender moment" times, the short times, the long times, and everything in between. 

(Click here if you can't view it, and want to.)
This movie was made from my babe :) It was just at the beginning of my semester and he sent it to me just for fun, and I sent one to him! Haha, he's just a cute guy :)

My babe is my babe. And he's mine forever. I've been thinking about dating and such a lot lately. Not "relationship" type dating, just a date. Ya know? The kind they tell you to wait for till you're 16? Yeah, that kind. Well, a friend of mine told me that nobody will prolly want to date me because of Brady. And if they saw my facebook, they most definitely won't. I kinda felt offensive at first, but he was right. Him and my mother suggested I take the pictures of Brady & I off if that was the case, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it (not that I had thought it was a good idea in the first place). One reason, because I'm sure everyone would go all "did you guys break up?" or "did you dear john him?" or something to the point that they would notice. Plus, I loved Brady way too much just to take pictures off so I can get a date. Psh. Guess I won't be dating if that's what it takes.

I guess you can say I've made progress with finishing first semester of college in the middle of Brady being gone. I read the entire Book of Mormon in two months. It just doesn't seem real that it's gone by that fast. I love my Brady very much. It hurts a lot to have him gone, and I've been truly struggling. I have a ton of support, and even though some days I really don't feel like I can get through, tomorrow always comes. I'm not looking forward to going back to Ephraim, but I keep telling myself, "4 more months and you're outta there!" Then I can come home and go to SLCC for the Summer, and if things work money wise, I'll head up to Rexburg :)

My new years resolution: Workout every other day, and eat healthier.

Well Happy New year everybody!