That's What I Love About Sundays

My weekend went pretty great. Fast, which I hate, but they always come so I know I'll get another weekend soon. Saturday Brady and I spent some time at his house, running to the grocery store, date night at Wendy's and some storage wars watching.

This morning I decided to curl my hair, which I haven't in a while. I went to church and we learned about baptisms, and then I left to go to Sacrament with Brady. I love going to church with him. We left early because I wasn't feeling well and I so badly needed a nap. We went back to his house where I fell asleep and he played on his gameboy.

When I woke up, it was time to eat dinner. Today is his moms birthday so we had dinner with his family. Yummy pork and bread! Of course, salad and potatoes were added but I don't like either of those. Dessert was jello, and I absolutely hate jello. So I had none of that. After, we played a game of pictionary and sang to his mom. We left after the game to head to my house to see my sister, bil and nephew. We played bang which was really fun, my mom played for her first time. It was just a really relaxed Sunday and I loved it :)

Baby Ellie :)

Tonight we went to visit my cousins and their adorable little girl born just about a week ago. She's so cute! I think she looks a lot like her dad! I forget how tiny newborns are. Sawyer came along and he just looked so big next to her, and he's only 6 months!! I love babies. They're a lot of work, and I can't even really say that cause I'm a mom, but having babysat babies, and just being around them and working around them, they're hard work, but they're SO worth it. I love my nephews so much, and now I'll add little Ellie to the bunch. She's so cute and I'm so excited to watch her grow :)

These Things Will Change

Well, my life changed as of today. Not a whole lot, but my normal routine for the past month or so. Brady and I have had a wonderful winter break but now it's time for me to hit the books, and him to start his new job.

I've been doing the same thing for about 2 years now, so it's not much change but adding Brady to the picture (not just in letters anymore; physically) does change things. It changes how I spend my time, who I talk to, maybe even how many minutes I'm using a month ;) But, it's been a good change and I'm really happy :)

I started school today, and so far, my teachers are complete opposites. I'm also going to be spending over 200$ for just 2 books, which makes me want to cry. Both of my classes are literally right next to each other, so I don't have to walk far, AND they're both next to two parking areas which is really nice. My Psychology class is prolly going to be my hardest, lots of presentations and book reading; which will be a first for me ;) and my Marriage & Family Relations class seems pretty easy, but I'll be writing papers for it as well. I'm kind of bummed that I'm going to be even more busier than I was but I love school and this is 2 classes closer to graduating. After this semester, I'll only have 4 more classes until I graduate!! :)

Brady has a job now, and today is his first day :) I miss hearing from him, but he works the same schedule as me, so I don't have to worry about working later than him, only earlier. But, at least we'll have nights together. Last night was our last night without homework/work duties, and we spent it watching Fringe. We have 1 more episode left of season three and it's really intense!! He's so cute and makes me so happy :) Our lives are going really well. I'm proud of him for what he's doing now and plans to do! I believe he'll be starting school at SLCC in the summer to complete his associates and then we'll decide where to go to school after that! Wish us both luck! :) It's gonna be a long 4 months!!

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We also went bowling with some old co-workers Saturday night, so let's share some photos from that great event. We got tired real fast and made a promise to never bowl more than an hour. My fingers hurt so bad, and I also didn't do very well!

Yay for panoramic pictures on the new camera!! :)

The Year I Didn't Go

This post is long overdue... but I'm waiting too long to write it!

Last year was the year I didn't go. The year my heart ached to see Andy. The year I struggled to go say hi. The year I finally felt okay not going. But at the same time, I felt AWFUL.

I have gone every year since he passed away. Sometimes I'd go twice a year. But last year, I never made it. I cried a lot. I was at war with myself. A lot of it was apart of the process of letting go. I don't want him to ever feel like he's not important to me anymore, ever! It felt weird breaking a habit of going to see him after 3 years... It didn't feel right to me.

One thing I remember, as my mother once told me, "It took me about 2-3 years before I stopped visiting my mom... Give yourself some time." I felt like my family never understood why I always wanted to see him. But it was just apart of healing, and it brought comfort to my heart. And now that it really has been 3 years, I just made the decision not to go. I don't know when I'll ever visit him again, because it definitely felt weird not visiting him, but I'm okay. Time does heal wounds, and I know he is in a much better, happier place than on this earth.

As you see on the right hand side of my blog, there is a TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS picture, it will lead you to their website. It's a movement, support and help for those who are struggling of ALL kinds, especially suicide. It's something I'm apart of, and it inspires me to help everyone around me.

I have had the same EFY lanyard since I met Andy at EFY which was 3 years ago. It was something that reminded me of him daily, but I knew I needed to move on from that and let it go, so instead of finding something completely different, I got something to remind me of Andy but in a positive way. A way that would encourage me to always help others, and to remember that I, myself, matter. That this life isn't so bad and leaving this world doesn't have to be my only choice.

Next I got a sweatshirt, and it's the comfiest thing ever. I'm really grateful that there are people in the world who put others before them, to help save lives, and it's a ripple-effect. I cannot wait to be a high school counselor. I cannot wait to help others, with whatever it is they're going through both good and bad. It's one of the biggest desires in my heart. I'm grateful for my high school counselor, who, still to this day, helps me when I can't hold back the tears.

I love my Andy so much, and I always will. And I know that even when I choose not to go to his grave to see him, he will know I'm thinking of him. Every single day. It's okay now, even if I miss him still. Watch over us Andy, we all love and miss you.

God Be With You 'Til We Meet Again..... ♥

Everyday

You could've bowed out gracefully

But you didn't

You knew enough to know

To leave well enough alone

But you wouldn't..

I drive myself crazy
Tryin' to stay out of my own way
The messes that I make
But my secrets are so safe
The only one who gets me
Yeah, you get me
It's amazing to me..

How every day
Every day, every day
You save my life..


I love you Brady. I'm very grateful for you. I'm grateful for your patience, and your unconditional love. We are a team, and I see your consistent effort in keeping our relationship strong, and that means a lot to me. I hope you always remember how much I love and appreciate you and all that you do. You are amazing, and one of the best people I've ever known.


Everyday - Rascal Flatts

New Camera

I got a new camera and I'm REALLY excited. I love taking pictures, and I'm always taking pictures. If you haven't noticed, majority of my posts include pictures. Anyway, tonight we had a really awesome Relief Society activity about documenting our lives through photos and I'm really glad because I got my camera in time to keep doing that!

I got one for my birthday almost 5 years ago but it broke after my first year of college. Completely; no explanation and I basically cried. Camera's are so expensive!!! And I told Brady I wanted one before he and I got married, and he would always tell me we could just use his, which is fine, but I still want my own, ya know? It's nice just having your own. Hahaha, so I got one! And it was on sale!! And I didn't even have to buy a memory card because Brady had one for me. I just thought it was silly that memory cards don't come with cameras anymore.... when did they change that?? Hahaha anyway, here's a few photos of my new camera. :)

Not very many, but I'm excited to start using it! Like tomorrow. My cousin had her adorable baby girl today, so I'll be taking pictures of her and posting them!!! :) LOVE MY CAMERA!!

2013 Goals

My first post of 2013 and what better way then to share my goals. They always say goals are more effective if you write them down and/or share them with someone. And I've always wanted to keep track of them somewhere, so I thought, why not my blog? And I'll keep a link on the side so you can see how I'm doing so far :) I'm going to keep adding to this list because you can never have to many goals, but I'm not setting an expectation that I have to meet all of these goals, they're just things I would like to accomplish for 2013.

• Be happier.
• Read the Book of Mormon 3 times
• Pray more than I do now
• Write in my journal everyday
• Loose weight/eat healthier
• Run at least 3-5 5Ks
• Take photographs always
• Finish my quilt
• Sew a skirt/dress
• Budget better/spend less
• Attend the Temple weekly
• Graduate with my AS in Psychology
• Read all the books on my shelf

I will read all of these books.

• Bear my testimony on Fast Sunday
• Receive a 3.0/3.5 every semester at school
• Get ready everyday - no more just waking up
• Save money
• Become a BLT at work

That is all I can think of right now, but I will continue to add more and I hope that you'll all follow along :) And good luck to you with all of your goals for this year. Work hard every day, and each year will be the greatest! I've got a few separate goals that I'm preparing for but I'll announce those as they happen :) ;) This will be a fabulous year, and I'm very excited to see what happens.