In 7 Months...

I will be graduating from SLCC with my Associates of Science in Psychology.

Can you believe it?

I can and I can't.

My first year of school was hard, and I pretty much played and didn't take classes very seriously. But it wasn't until I took a Psychology class at Snow that I began to realize this seriously is my passion. I had a wonderful high school counselor that I still keep in touch with, and she really influenced me in my decision to help others. When I lost my sweet Andy in high school she was truly the only one there for me. That was my year in trusting her, and relying on her to help me. She truly did. It was something about her, and her office, and her words, her comfort, her friendship, her caring heart to sincerely help me. She wasn't just a counselor that changed my classes because I hated my teacher. She truly cared about my mental and emotional well-being. And the day that I graduated, I clearly remember her handing me my high school diploma and I just told her I couldn't have done it without her. There is just no way. I thanked her for all that she did, and told her I was going to miss her dearly. *insert tearful eyes*

From that day forward, I knew that not only did I want to make a difference in lives and make sure high school students knew they were cared for, like she had for me. But I also wanted to make a difference in the lives of those who were suffering like my sweet Andy. Oh how precious life is. My perspective has completely changed, and I only hope my dream can be reached. If I can change just one persons life. Just one, my life will be complete.

In just 7 months, I will graduate.

In just 7 months, I can truly start my journey of becoming a HS counselor.

I'm so happy!

I might cry.

:)

Oh, and this also makes me very happy.

Love Never Fails You

This is it. This is for me. This is my love. This is my life. This is my blessing. This is my journey.

It's all for me. I've been given every single thing in my life, and I deserve it all. I truly have been through so much, and I have been blessed even greater than what I have been through. It's true when they say, the Lord will not take something from your life without replacing it with something greater.

I remember when I dated this boy that I thought I loved in high school. There was a lot of drama, and heartbreak, and cute texts, and fights, and everything in between. I didn't think there was a greater anything than the guy I had in my life at the moment... but little did I know the Lord had something in store for me, much greater than I could have ever dreamed of.

Being with Brady has made me realize what it really means to love someone. To want everything and more for someone. To look at someone in the eyes, and tell them they deserve everything they want, they deserve the world. I have never emotionally, spiritually and physically cared about someone so much, as I have Brady.

Yes, I know I say this a lot, and yes I know I talk about Brady and express my love for him a lot. I know.

Tonight I can literally feel the Spirit engulf my heart. I can truly say my Father is with me tonight as my heart longs for my sweetheart. He knows of my wants, needs and desires. He knows my pains, weaknesses and frustrations. He knows me better than anyone else. Which is exactly why He knows I deserve Brady. I need Brady. I cannot continue my journey back to Him without Brady. I cannot imagine that.

Brady is what I need. He helps me through my struggles. He comforts me, even being in England. These past two years he has done nothing but make sure I am happy and well taken care of. Nobody has ever done that for me. Nobody has cared so much about the future as much as Brady has. Nobody has been more desiring of the Temple than Brady. Nobody is Brady.

"Think the best of each other.

Especially those you say you love.

Assume the good and doubt the bad.

True love beareth all things,

Believeth all things, Hopeth all things,

Endureth all things."

-Jeffrey R. Holland

My heart is so full tonight. It is so full of love for Brady. I would sacrifice everything for him. It is the most amazing feeling when you can say that to someone and you feel your heart jump, and your stomach flutter because the truth that you hear in those words means the world. I love Brady so very very much. Some may understand, others may not. And I obviously do not have a problem letting people know.

I just wanted to say how grateful I am for my Father in Heaven. For constantly listening to my prayers at night, some full of tears, some full of happiness I almost can't stay on my knees. I'm so grateful for his constant guidance, and knowing I am His Daughter. I am so grateful for this gospel, and for the knowledge I have that families can be together forever. I'm so grateful for the wonderful examples I have around me. It really means a lot.

I miss my sweetheart so much, but it won't be long before we're reunited, and I hope everyone is just dying for that day to come like I am ;) Love you very very much Brady. With my whole heart, to the moon and back. Forever.

Love is not proud. Love does not boast. Love after all, matters the most. Love does not run. Love does not hide. Love does not keep locked inside. Love is the river that flows through. Love never fails you. Love will sustain. Love will provide. Love will not cease at the end of time. Love will protect. Love always hopes. Love still believes when you don't. Love is the arms that are holding you. Love never fails you. When my heart won't make a sound. When I can't turn back around. When the sky is falling down. Nothing is greater than this, greater than this. Love is right here. Love is alive. Love is the way. The truth, the life. Love is the river than flows through. Love is the arms that are holding you. Love is the place you will fly to. Love never fails you.

B

My best friend had her baby girl on Tuesday, and I just went to visit her today, with my mama and sister. It was a good visit, and I'd missed my best friend lots. She looked like she was doing really well.

We have kind of decided B and Sawyer just might be boyf/girlf one day ;) But we'll see. Hahaha, anyway, it was so good to talk. And Austin takes such good care of my best friend and B. Seriously, she's so lucky to have him, and I'm so glad she does. She deserves him, and this beautiful baby girl. I'm so proud of my best friend and how she's doing. She really is such a great person and someone to turn to when you need a friend. She's been through a lot, both good and bad, but has always held her head high and that is something I admire (and try not to envy) about her. I just love her so much. So proud of her, and so happy for her that B is finally here :)

Now I hope she doesn't mind that I'm going to share one of my very favorite pictures of B.

Love you B. Even if I'm not biologically related to you, I still love you very much. Can't wait to watch you grow up :)

My 70th Letter

"I made a banoffee pie today! It's just a pie made with banana pieces and caramel. I can't wait to make it for you!"

"Are you still going to come to the airport?"

"I'm going to have to go to sleep right when I get home so I can try to avoid getting jet lag."

"Elder Peterson is such a good companion! He's so funny! We get along pretty well, probably the best I've ever gotten along with a companion. It's been great!"

"Babe...did you know that you're really cute?"

We are officially at 59 days left.

I'm getting so excited everyone.

I'm so excited to drink hot chocolate, catch up on movies he's missed, show him some awesome music! Take lots and lots and lots of pictures! Go see the lights at Temple Square, and at the Hogle Zoo! I'm excited to ice skating, or snowboarding, and just snuggle. I'm excited to hear his jokes. I'm excited to make meals together, and desserts! Yum! I'm excited to spend Christmas together! I'm excited for my new years kiss! ;) I'm excited to hear more stories of his mission. I'm excited to go to church with him, and the Temple!! :) Seriously, life is about to get real good.

Dos

2 Months ladies and gents.
2 Months until my sweetheart is home.

Next month will be the final countdown.

Is it real?
Is this really true?
I can't believe it's my turn.
It can't be.
Not yet.
I feel like I still have time left...
It keeps going faster.

In all honesty, the first year was straight up awful. It was so hard and so long and just dreadful. And this last year, has gone by SO fast.. In the blink of an eye! I can't believe just 2 months from today, my sweetheart will be stepping off an airplane to come see his family, and mine :) Oh I've never smiled so big. Oh I've never been so happy. I always cry. And it's usually cause I can't believe it, and I'm so happy, and so excited and nervous, but usually because of this. I really need to stop watching them. Seeing him cry is SO precious. But why isn't she crying? Hahahaha I prolly will, well, I know I will, be bawling my eyes out. I'm such a cry baby and so emotional, and just so excited :)

EEEEEEK :)
We're almost to the finish line ladies and gents.
Wish me luck and pray these next two months fly by even faster!!!
Love you so much babe!
I'll be seeing you soon :)

UTE NATION!!

24-21

Brady's aunt and uncle invited me, along with their friends and Brady's sister (Ashley.. lol) to the rival game today!! It has been like a dream to go to that game. I was so excited! I even went to Red Zone and bought a shirt so that I could be official, and I had my first pair of vans... and yes, they're red!! :) It was awesome! Mike gave me some stickers to put on my face for the finishing touch!

It was so good to see them again! It had been awhile. They're like the nicest people I've ever met!! We met up with some friends of Mike's and tailgated. Basically eating pizza, breadsticks and cookies with Ute fans surrounding is pretty stinkin' cool :) We headed over to the stadium that I hadn't been to since high school. It was so surreal. Seeing that many fans, seeing the small BYU section that we happened to be sitting in front of, was SO awesome! :) The game started off great! We made a touch down, and a field goal, we were up by 7, and then we made another touchdown. I'm being very careful to talk about the game itself because 1) I know nothing about football, 2) I don't want any weird comments on here and 3) because all that matters is that we won!!!! After that, BYU started catching up, there was some crazy calls for both teams. Everyone was SO frustrated with the refs. But whoever isn't?? Most hated people in the world.

24 - 7

Ashley, Me, Jody & Heather

It came down to the very last second and it was BYU's ball, they tried to pass, but we tackled them, the MUSS (student section) rushed the field while a "yellow flag" was thrown, for some stupid call (who even cares). So we let BYU try again, they try to kick it but we blocked it... and the MUSS rushed the field again... well, whatya know?? The REFS BLEW THE WHISTLE WITH ANOTHER YELLOW FLAG!! Saying that the fans rushed the field before the ball was down.... SERIOUS!!! Hahahaha by now I'm laughing *please stop being nice to BYU* and trying not to pee my pants at the same time. All the fans are now yelling at the ridiculously stupid MUSS section for risking the game!!! If we would have lost, it would have been on their heads... So we let BYU try again for the 3RD TIME!!! (Keep in mind, it's like midnight by now). Hahahaha, so he goes to kick it, dead silent, I'm watching the ball fly... and just praying it doesn't go in.. thinking it will.. and,

DING!

IT HITS THE FIELD GOAL POLE AND FLIES TO THE LEFT!!

UTE NATION STORMS THE FIELD AND WE WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was the best moment of my entire life.

Jody and I were just dying like the last 5 minutes. 

Hahahaha, it was seriously the best thing ever..

24-21

Greatest day of my entire life. I am SO proud to be a U fan. But I have to give it to the Y. They played a REALLY good game. Not gonna lie. No wonder they're the rival team. They're so good! :) Just not quite as good as my UTES BABY!!!! :) I had so much fun talking with Jody and her friend and just enjoying the game! Seriously, it was the greatest EVER. I have to start going every single year now. Even though next year is the last one for a while... OH WELL! :) 3 years in a row baby!!!

Thanks again Mike & Jody.. SO much fun :)

My 69th Letter

"Less than 80 days left!!"

"I'm not really nervous about coming home. I think it will make me quite sad to be leaving England, but I there the desire to see my Babe will overpower that!"

"iPhone? As if! I would never want one of those! ;) I have to see what a windows phone is like. If they're not good, I'll get something w/Android. But I'm not getting an iPhone. ;)"

"Thank you for sharing your testimony with me. My testimony wasn't very strong before I came on a mission, so I'm really glad I came! I've been able to see soooo many miracles since I came on me mission, and I've had so many great spiritual experiences!"

"I love you so much!"

66 Days!!!