But my head is running a million miles per minute and I can't go to sleep.
I take medicine to help me sleep because I wake up every hour during the night, and I used to notice it would make me sleepy, but lately I haven't really felt that way. It is starting to take me an hour or longer to fall asleep again :( UGH. So here I am with tired eyes and a brain that's running.
I want to get out some things on my mind.
- School. I'm nervous for school. But I'm also excited for school. My bil is in my math class, so hopefully he can help me this time around :) I am so nervous that it's going to be a hard two semesters for me, but I honestly can't believe I'm that close to being done. I've dreamed of being done with my associates since my Sophomore year in high school. 7 classes left.... I can do this!
- My job. I love my job! It has been getting so frustrating lately. I feel like I keep doing everything wrong, and now it'll take longer to move up! I really wanted to go to the loan side but now I have to wait for a position to open, and hopefully I don't have to wait for my level 5 to get one :(
- Brady. I'm so stinkin' nervous to see him again. I pretty much blogstalk a lot of people (nothing new, I prolly stalk your blog), especially former MG's. I see their married life, working and schooling and how happy they are and I just can't help but wish that was me :( I just wish it was my turn. I wish Brady were here. I prolly seem like I'm in such a rush, but I just can't help but want the blessings and happiness that I see everyone around me have. I know those things are waiting for me, my patience is just being tested heavily right now. These next 3.5 months better fly cause I'm dying.
- Wedding. Oh boy. I think about weddings a lot. I might possibly be married in the next 8 months or so... :O My goodness. Where do I even start? I don't want to without Brady, but I'm so wedding hungry. Maybe I should be a planner? Ugh. Why do I want to be married so badly? So fast? So young? Should I take my time before getting engaged? I don't think Brady would like that. I'm sure he'd propose to me right off the airplane if he could, but we might get in trouble for that.
- Being poor. Ugh. Hahahahaha the life of a college student.
- Not being able to sleep without this build-a-bear Brady got for me before he left. Like it seriously feels so awkward to sleep without it. (Deep dark secret?) I hope Brady will be able to replace him. HA!
- Should I dye my hair? Should I chop my hair? What should I do with my hair!!!!???
- What should I wear to the airport? I'm so planning this early, for who knows why. But everything about this waiting coming to an end is so surreal. I've only ever read of other stories coming to an end... I can't believe mine is about to. So... should I wear a dress? Skirt? Jeans & a tee? Sweater and jeans? Coat? (It will be winter) should I be at the airport? Oh wait. silly question. I have to be.
- Also, this book I'm reading, I'm not sure I really like it. I think I'm gonna give it 100 pages, and if I don't like it, then I won't read it. Good plan. I'm quite obsessed with reading. But I'm sooooo slow at it.
- Speaking of slow, I went running last night. It was awesome. My body is not in shape, but it felt good to get out again.
- Also, I get really bugged easily. REALLY bugged. I just want Brady and nobody else. I get so hurt and upset and bugged and then it stresses me out cause I don't want to feel so bugged and the only person that can help me and love me back is Brady. Ugh. He just needs to be home.
- Oh, one more thing, my birthday is in 4 days. Yippeeeee :)
Honestly, that's all that I can really think of typing right now. Maybe I should try sleeping again...
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| over and out. |
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