Happy Birthday Andy!

Happy Birthday Andy! :) I miss you lots! Today I visited your grave; I brought my dad. First time I've ever brought someone. It was good to see you again. It's been since July that I was last here. Everything looks the same since there isn't any snow. I loved the roses, and the Christmas wreath/tree. My dad has never seen you before so it was neat being able to show something that means a lot to me. I shared some memories, and we talked about a few things. He let me have some private time, and then I felt ready to go; or so I thought. I couldn't help it when the tears came as my dad hugged me and said, "You're a great friend Ash. He is lucky to have you." I really miss you. I think next time I'll just go by myself. I'm glad my dad came to support me on your birthday, but I miss me and you time. Just sitting, thinking and talking to you. I feel like times are changing. I'm getting older, and you'll always be that 16 year old boy that I loved and cared for. It's hard not really being able to picture you here and now. You're not fading from my life, and I'm not forgetting you, you just aren't consuming my every thoughts. Your family is still so sweet and kind and I stay in touch with them the best that I can. Sam misses you too. He's serving a mission and is going to be home in just a little over 10 months! Your daughter is beautiful! I'm so lucky to have met her a few months ago. You truly are loved Andy :) I love looking back on our good times at EFY. I love looking at pictures and remembering the good times or silly things said. I loved that you, Sam and I were best friends; three amigo's; three musketeer's! I'll always love you; you'll always have a place in my heart. I'm grateful I could visit on your birthday. I hope you had a great day in Heaven :)