A Day Late

So I didn't have time to post about this yesterday, but here I am today!

Yesterday marked month #8 for Brady being gone! Month 7 went slow, but fast as well. I can't believe it's August and that it's the 3rd of August already!! I'm excited for school to start and see what that brings into my life. Work is going good, I work about everyday. I'm learning a lot, and getting better at interacting with people. I just wish I could use that skill outside of work! Haha, I'm such a shy goof when it comes to being around people. I get really nervous and anxious. It's totally weird.

On his way to pick me up for homecoming :)

Anyway, Brady is doing fantastic and I'm really proud of how far he's come :) He's made it out this long and he only has so much more to go! Next month, I'll be having a baby! ;) Hahahaha just kidding. Technically it takes 9 months to have a baby, and that number is the next month mark so I guess it has been a long time! Lol When the semester of school is over, then Brady will have passed his year mark! I'm pretty stoked! :) Even though it feels like he just left yesterday, I'm super excited for that year mark! Then I only have one semester (possibly two) and one more summer without him, and he'll be home for the holidays!! I can't wait to see him again, it'll be wonderful :) I can do this.

I do miss him a lot though, I'm not going to lie. Someday's it's pretty easy, others its just super hard. I miss watching movies with him and his family. I miss his little jokes that usually nobody would catch or hear. I miss playing jello in the car, and the little contests we'd have. I miss punching him whenever I saw a slug bug. I miss fighting over the radio station. I miss calling him and hearing him say, "Hi babe!" in the tone he always used. I miss him knocking on the door the same way my mom does. I miss running outside to hug him after coming home from school on a weekend. I miss seeing his car parked outside my house. I miss sitting at his kitchen counter sharing a pizza and drinking juice. I miss him running over to open my door before I'd open it myself (I'd tease him so much about it!) I miss him carrying me to my door if it was raining or there was snow on the ground, or if he just wanted to. I miss that he didn't care what I looked like, and always told me I was beautiful. I miss him. I miss him. And I'm gonna say that for a very long time.

I just want my best friend back. I just struggle a lot lately with "having friends" and what not, and a lot of that is my own fault but it's just a struggle I've had since he left. I was with him every breathing moment of my day (almost) and then he left, and we cut off all contact and all we could do is write letters... it's pretty tough, but very good at the same time. It's put us on a separate journey and we've both grown so much! I can't even begin to tell you how much Brady has changed!! I hope I have changed and can continue to change so that we're both more mature when he gets home. He's really been such a great best friend to me, and I miss him so much! But, he needs to be there and I need to be here, and that is how it'll be for the next 16 months. Wahoo!