Well here is the belated post and it's long.
I had a very wonderful Thanksgiving break and yes, I spent a lot of it with Brady :)
I loved every moment that I had!
I came home early from school on Monday and we spent time together then, Tuesday and Wednesday! We watched movies, played games, went places, spent time with family. It was great :) For Thanksgiving, he went to his family and I went to mine. We both had a wonderful holiday and got together later that night. I went Black Friday shopping with my family and I had a lot of fun! Then Brady and I got together the next day and just hungout some more.
I remember feeling a tad nervous and scared because Saturday was coming and that was the last official day I could spend with him. Saturday came and it was wonderful :) We got together and watched the BYU/UTAH football game. We then finished his talk and we ate dinner. I wanted so badly to make sure I went to Temple Square before he left, and that's what we did! It was THE best. We weren't there for very long considering how cold it was and he was starting to get sick anyways. We walked around took lots of pictures, and then drove home. It was so special because that's the Temple I love, and want to be married in, and I love Brady and want to marry him. I know I'm going to. There isn't a doubt about it in my mind. Anyway, we went home and watched a movie.
My heart broke that night. I did such a good job holding it in all week long so I could show how supportive I was and keep a happy face on, but I cried. I felt really bad crying in front of him, but I couldn't help it. It was the last night to be with my babe and it was ending. He took me home and I just remember hugging my mom and crying.
I had a very wonderful Thanksgiving break and yes, I spent a lot of it with Brady :)
I loved every moment that I had!
I came home early from school on Monday and we spent time together then, Tuesday and Wednesday! We watched movies, played games, went places, spent time with family. It was great :) For Thanksgiving, he went to his family and I went to mine. We both had a wonderful holiday and got together later that night. I went Black Friday shopping with my family and I had a lot of fun! Then Brady and I got together the next day and just hungout some more.
I remember feeling a tad nervous and scared because Saturday was coming and that was the last official day I could spend with him. Saturday came and it was wonderful :) We got together and watched the BYU/UTAH football game. We then finished his talk and we ate dinner. I wanted so badly to make sure I went to Temple Square before he left, and that's what we did! It was THE best. We weren't there for very long considering how cold it was and he was starting to get sick anyways. We walked around took lots of pictures, and then drove home. It was so special because that's the Temple I love, and want to be married in, and I love Brady and want to marry him. I know I'm going to. There isn't a doubt about it in my mind. Anyway, we went home and watched a movie.
My heart broke that night. I did such a good job holding it in all week long so I could show how supportive I was and keep a happy face on, but I cried. I felt really bad crying in front of him, but I couldn't help it. It was the last night to be with my babe and it was ending. He took me home and I just remember hugging my mom and crying.
Here are some photos of Temple Square 2010 :)
The next day was Brady's "See You Later." I'm so glad they don't use the term, farewell anymore. It sounds so depressing. He did a WONDERFUL job. I went to my cousins see you later earlier that morning and he did just as good. I was anticipating Brady's see you later and it was driving me crazy how slow the day was going. I love that my mom always said, "Just like a bandaid, rip it off fast." And that's what I wanted to happen with Brady's see you later, and him leaving for two years. He did amazing on his talk and had me crying. He was crying himself and I loved the stories he told. He had a great turn out with a lot of friends and family members coming to show their support!
Elder Brady Ziegler :)
Elder Brady Ziegler :)
Brady and his Uncle Mike!
Brady & his parents
Brady & I
Right before we said our goodbyes...
His get together at his house after was really good. We all ate some food and just gathered together and spent some time with everyone. It was really good but I knew the clock was ticking. I was starting to tear up every now and then and I just kept holding Brady's hand, we were just waiting for the time that my dad would be coming. Slowly one by one his family left. His sweet Aunt Jody and Uncle Mike are so kind and asked how I was doing and gave me a hug. Jody told me of when she sent off a missionary and how hard she remembers it being.
I couldn't hold it in and started to cry. I was leaving at 5 to go back to school and 4:30 was approaching. I just couldn't hold it in any longer. I cried. My father texted me and said he was on his way. We stood outside waiting for my dad to come and I just cried, holding his hand tighter than I ever have before. My dad finally came and he walked me to my car... (I think I might cry just typing this). I put my things in the car and just turned around and bawled. I hugged him so tightly and just bawled. I let everything out. I promised him I'd be here when he got back and I asked him to promise he'd come back for me. I haven't had a heartbreak like that in a really long time. My heart just wanted to hold on and marry him. I love him. I LOVE HIM. That moment I wished I could have frozen. I looked at him and he kissed me a few times and we hugged again and I looked at him with tears in his eyes and I said, "I love you okay? Promise you'll come back for me?" And he told me yes and that he loved me too. He opened my door, I got in the car, and I kissed him one last time before he shut the door (in the mean time, but father got out of the car to go shake his hand) and he looked at me and mouthed, "I love you" and then shut to door, and I let it all go. I bawled, loud, hard, long... you can just imagine.. I swear I lost my sweet Andy all over again it was that heartbreaking. He shook my dads hand and went inside. I cried for a little at home and my mother talked to me and calmed me down. We left for Ephraim and I made it back safely. My father gave me a blessing before we left and I need to trust it. I need to turn to my father for comfort and that's what the scriptures are for as well. My roommates are wonderful girls and have been helping me through this as well!
I've been doing just fine lately but tomorrow I'm going to crack. He gets set apart at 7 and leaves the next morning. I imagine I'll cry this whole weekend and it'll get terrible at nights but that's expected. I have wonderful friends and family who support me are going to be there for me through this. I hope that if Brady sees this, that he knows how proud I am of him. I'm sorry for explaining how heartbroken I feel and how much I'm going to miss him but I need to get it out. He's going to be one amazing missionary, and I know that with school, church, work and other things, I can stay busy and get done what the Lord needs me too. Time is going. It's flying and before I know it, he'll be back. I'm proud of how far he's come, considering what he's been through. As hard as it is, it's right. When something is hard for us to do, that just proves its the right thing to do. The Lord knows my heart. It breaks his heart that I'm pain but he loves me enough to have brought Brady into my life. He just needs him for two years. TWO years; that's it. I can no longer feel selfish, I can only feel and hope that he'll give everyone the gift that I feel when I read and pray everyday.
I love you babe!!!! Good luck!!! Write me as soon as you can :)
I couldn't hold it in and started to cry. I was leaving at 5 to go back to school and 4:30 was approaching. I just couldn't hold it in any longer. I cried. My father texted me and said he was on his way. We stood outside waiting for my dad to come and I just cried, holding his hand tighter than I ever have before. My dad finally came and he walked me to my car... (I think I might cry just typing this). I put my things in the car and just turned around and bawled. I hugged him so tightly and just bawled. I let everything out. I promised him I'd be here when he got back and I asked him to promise he'd come back for me. I haven't had a heartbreak like that in a really long time. My heart just wanted to hold on and marry him. I love him. I LOVE HIM. That moment I wished I could have frozen. I looked at him and he kissed me a few times and we hugged again and I looked at him with tears in his eyes and I said, "I love you okay? Promise you'll come back for me?" And he told me yes and that he loved me too. He opened my door, I got in the car, and I kissed him one last time before he shut the door (in the mean time, but father got out of the car to go shake his hand) and he looked at me and mouthed, "I love you" and then shut to door, and I let it all go. I bawled, loud, hard, long... you can just imagine.. I swear I lost my sweet Andy all over again it was that heartbreaking. He shook my dads hand and went inside. I cried for a little at home and my mother talked to me and calmed me down. We left for Ephraim and I made it back safely. My father gave me a blessing before we left and I need to trust it. I need to turn to my father for comfort and that's what the scriptures are for as well. My roommates are wonderful girls and have been helping me through this as well!
I've been doing just fine lately but tomorrow I'm going to crack. He gets set apart at 7 and leaves the next morning. I imagine I'll cry this whole weekend and it'll get terrible at nights but that's expected. I have wonderful friends and family who support me are going to be there for me through this. I hope that if Brady sees this, that he knows how proud I am of him. I'm sorry for explaining how heartbroken I feel and how much I'm going to miss him but I need to get it out. He's going to be one amazing missionary, and I know that with school, church, work and other things, I can stay busy and get done what the Lord needs me too. Time is going. It's flying and before I know it, he'll be back. I'm proud of how far he's come, considering what he's been through. As hard as it is, it's right. When something is hard for us to do, that just proves its the right thing to do. The Lord knows my heart. It breaks his heart that I'm pain but he loves me enough to have brought Brady into my life. He just needs him for two years. TWO years; that's it. I can no longer feel selfish, I can only feel and hope that he'll give everyone the gift that I feel when I read and pray everyday.
I love you babe!!!! Good luck!!! Write me as soon as you can :)
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