Memories... Good or Bad?

In loving memory of Nathan Andrew Edgar :)

This is my wonderful friend Andy.
That is what he had everyone refer him to at EFY.

I met this wonderful boy at EFY last year.
It was my first year ever, and I had the time of my life!!

Little did I know this boy would change my life forever...



The reason I make a post like this is because tonight, I miss him dearly. There are so many little things that remind me of him, and I've been doing my best to teach myself not to get so upset or sad or anything like that.

He was such a sweet friend :) He had such a catchy smile and bright and smart personality. I remember always thinking how lucky I was to know a person like him. I had only seen him once in person after EFY. He took me to see a musical, I remember not knowing anything that was going on and he kindly explained everything to me. Hahaha, it was such a fun day and I got to meet his family too :)

He sadly has left us here and is now living with is loving Father in Heaven. I miss him so much, each and every day. I think about him all the time and what could have been. I've been working with tons of people to help me through this and I've had plenty of support and help and love from my very own family as well :) I do my best to remember to live on and know that he is in a much better place than this world could ever be, for him.

One memory that I cherish so very much, may seem cheesy to so many. At EFY I sneezed once in front of him, (now my sneezes are pretty small and high pitched), he laughed and said, I hope this isn't weird but you have a cute sneeze :) And I remember thinking, okay... thanks. Hahaha but ever since then, it was his little thing for me. Every time I sneezed after that he would tell me it was cute and just laugh. Now, when I hear that from others it kinda freezes the world around me and makes me wish even more that it was Andy saying it instead. That's only something Andy can say... I feel like I don't want to hear it when others say it because I cherish that so much, but I promise I'm doing my best to let it go...

I post this in remembrance of him.
I did my ASL project to the song called Why sung by Rascal Flatts.
It's such an amazing song and completely explains the story of my
dear Andy very well!! I highly reccommend you watch it :)
Just look up Why - Rascal Flatts - ASL on youtube.com.



This book is called Tear Soup.
My counselor gave me a copy of this.

Then I was put into this group thing with a bunch
of other kids who were kind of going through the same thing.

Our principal, Mr. Quarenburg was kind enough to buy
each of us a copy! So now I have two :)

I then, gave it to a lady in my stake who had lost her
husband a little over a year ago, and I just knew this would help her. I took her a plate of cookies, and this book and a card. I've never felt so good in my life, to forget my feelings about my loss, and crying and to do this for someone who was experiencing somewhat of the same things I am. She's such an amazing lady and truly needs love and comfort :) She's doing well and really appreciated it.

I'm so glad I gave that extra copy to someone I know what put it to good use.
The Lord always fits our needs through someone else.
I'm so happy I have the opportunity to serve!
But,

I love & miss you Andy...